Finding a Church or Just Listening

I’ve been trying to find an open and affirming church to download and listen to on my mp3 while I am at work and boy is it hard.

I have found the MCC church list by state and have been going through each one little by little but it is a tedious process. I do still download and listen to Revolution NYC that is pastored by Jay Bakker but I have found that I just need something that is more comfortable to me and yet challenges me at the same time.

I realize that the best challenge is to just sit down with an open bible and read, letting the Spirit speak to me – however, there is so much information that I receive it can be overwhelming at times. I just read over the last two sentences and realized I am being a whiner, trying to find the ‘perfect’ medium to receive instruction but really using it as an excuse to put off listening to God speak to me.

Currently my reading mode is the occasional search I will do via bible gateway to look up things I have come across online or verses that have popped into my head. Sad really. Obviously my soul is starving and I’m being picky about what I eat and what it looks like. And here I live in a society that does NOT suppress the word or give it a government control sound. I live in a society where I can pull up any information online without censorship and I’m being picky.  I guess I have taken my spoiled ways and allowed them to chew into my spirit.

There are so many distractions away from listening to God that the thought of actually sitting quietly and reading and listening have become so foreign that when we feel the need to draw closer to God we error in a magnificent way. Well I have been shown a mirror in writing this post and pray I will maintain a habit that will open my ears and eyes more to what God has to say to me.